Red Cliff

When I first saw the poster, I told myself that I must watch it. Being a Chinese, there's no way I can pass on this movie(not when it's about the infamous Three Kingdoms!). Besides, my knowledge in Chinese history sucked, so I thought it wouldn't harm to lay back, grab some popcorn and coke and watch the movie while picking up knowledge about "the Three Kingdoms".

I must be a genius to have thought of this.

It's a great prelude to the second part of the story which will involve lots of battle scenes, but I wouldn't mind if they would just combine both parts into one long movie. Even though I know what happened later(it's history, and then again my history didn't really suck that bad), I just didn't like the feeling of watching a movie and leaving it hanging halfway. And I didn't pay RM11 to watch a movie which ends with a "To be continued". They better not make me pay for the second part of the movie, because only we Asians are watching this movie in two parts! It's true! Surf the web, and you'll be shocked to find that only in Asian countries that the movie was split into two parts. Boo.

But then again, this movie is great and is a must watch! You'll regret if if you didn't watch it!

And I've said that my hottie Dominic will be here to stun anyone who visits this blog. I did not forget!

Don't you just love him? Unfortunately, he's taken. By me. Heh.

Till next time!

My New Man Candy

My latest model crush, Dominic Figlio! I first saw his face somewhere in a picture which I didn't know how I gain possession of, so all I could do is look at that one picture over and over again. But recently, I came across several bloggers which highlighted this model in their blogs. This was how I got to know his name and why did he become famous. Apparently, he was from "The Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency", and that the judge favoured him for his "masculine looks and well-proportioned body".

I totally agree.

Standing at 6'1" and wieghing 190lbs, Dominic is like the model of all models. Not to mention his body which everyone would describe as "a Greek God". And that's not it. He has good looks too. With the perfect formula of creating a beautiful person, Dominic has risen and charmed not only girls but also the guys(both gay and straight). And I am proud to say that I am indeed charmed by him.

And him posing only in his 2(x)ist underwear did not help a single bit. I gasped at the sight of him in only his underwear and almost forgot to breathe. The visual stimulation was so strong that my vagus nerve, pons and medulla oblongata went haywire and momentarily dropped their jobs to feed on some man candy.

I know that you guys can't wait to scroll back up to have a look at Dominic again. Go ahead, I'm done for now anyway.

Until the next entry, Dominic shall stay to stun every person who visits my blog. Nitey all!

The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX - Part III

So, the second part of "The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX" ended with the 'date' of me and 'The BF' hanging in mid air. What happened after having ice-creams at Baskin Robbins'?

Well, on that day, there were events going on. I don't even know what event it was(you guys know how The Curve always has flea market and so many other events that people just go there to see if there's anything interesting going on). So, there were people selling this airplane thingy that so when you swing your hand and let go of it, it'll somehow fly and return to you(something like a boomerang).

This! I've shown this pic before!

I told him it looked fun and he asked if I wanted one. You know the answer.

Talk about the plane, I don't even know where it went. Can't blame me, I'm not a good keeper and that I'm well-known for misplacing my stuffs. Plus, our 'date' was only a few weeks before leaving for Russia. I was busy packing my stuffs and didn't know where it went.

I have a strong feeling I played with the plane too much that it broke and threw it away. Gotta go check if it's hidden somewhere underneath my pile of old clothes. If it's not there, I don't know where it could be.

So, that was our first 'date'. And it was a pretty good one. It could've been better if I had the courage to propose to him. But I didn't want to rush things. After all, we haven't been in much contact for the past 2-3 years and I don't want to go on a 'date' with him once and then ask him to be my boyfriend.

That was last year.

This year, things were different. I've been back for a month but we haven't gone out on a date yet. Not that I've not seen him yet, I did, just that we didn't get the chance to go out alone, as my brother's always with us. Or to be true I'm the one tagging along as they're my brother's plans to hang out. My brother didn't want my parents to suspect anything since him going out alone with "his brother's friend" doesn't seem right. So yeah, I'm the third person in the relationship, and I don't like it everytime we go out on a 'threesome date'.

Whenever we go out, my brother would have his hands all around 'The BF', indicating to the whole world that he's the BF and I'm just 'a random friend who happen to tag along'. My brother would also buy him meals and clothes, and when we eat he'll always offer food to 'The BF' and make 'The BF' eat from my bro's chopsticks. In a smaller frame, it's like two lovers enjoying themselves, but when you pull the zoom back a little, you'll see a third person sitting at the other side of the table trying so hard to not be jealous over 'The Bro' feeding 'The BF'.

But 'The BF' seems to know what's happening around him. Whenever he eats something from my bro's chopsticks, he'll only take the offer once. The next time my bro tries to feed him, he'll insist that he doesn't want the food, or he'll offer the food to me instead. It's like he can sense my jealousy. In order to make me feel better, he doesn't accept the food and offer them to me instead. I know, I'm a big time jealous pig.

Then, he would also get me food that I like. When I say I want to eat ice-cream, the next time we pass-by the kiosk, he'll ask if I want ice-cream. Or when we're having buffet dinners, he'll get me the food I want without me asking him to get them for me. Sometimes, it really looked as though he has two boyfriends. And he really handled both of them well.

There was once we went shopping for clothes. My bro and I made him try-on some clothes because we both thought that it's time for him to get a wardrobe makeover. There were some tees which he liked and some which he didn't. My bro was the one who picked the clothes but he came to me to ask if it looked good on him and which should he get(see how he handle both his 'BF's, he'll try-on the clothes BF-1 chose, but go to BF-2 for opinion. By doing this he'll please both his 'BF's). Of course, he bought the clothes which BF-1 chose but only if BF-2 agrees to them.

Philosophy men's having sales this Summer. If you get three items from the shop, you'll get 70% off. So, 'The BF' got himself two shirts(one tank top which everyone loved and one tee which both 'The BF' and BF-2 disagree to but BF-1 insisted that 'The BF' should get it). In order to get 70% off the bill, we had to get a third item. BF-1 and 'The BF' both said I must get something too since 'The BF' already has two items. I didn't want anything from the shop, but they made me get something.

In the end, I got myself a swim trunk. A size two swim trunk which is white in color! It's so small I could hardly keep my pubes, half my butt and my balls in. Wear this to any pool and all gay men would think that I'm there looking for sex. But the worst thing is that 'The BF' actually held the trunk at my waist and my crotch and check if it fits, and he laughed so hard and so loud. He even recommended that I try it on before buying. What was he thinking?! Really, it was the first time he'd ever measure if the trunk fits me and suggest that I try it on. The thought of him thinking of me in the tight swim trunk and trying it on and show him was too much for me to process. I think he sensed that, so he told me that I don't have to show them if I were to try it on. Being the ego loser, I said I know what size fits me and that there's no need to try it on. So I just took the trunk and paid for it.

After leaving the shop, 'The BF' complained that he was the only one who tried on clothes back then and that I wasn't 'sporting' enough. Dude, if I had a body like yours I wouldn't hesitate trying-on those clothes and showing them to you! I know it'd be a total turn-off if a stick like me were to try on tank tops and tees with necks so low my entire sternum(not pecs) will be exposed.

'The BF' also wanted a pair of jeans, so we went with him to several shops before finally stopping at Topman. 'The BF' tried on a pair of jeans but it wasn't his size(man, he was trying on a size-30 jeans! Size-30 is MY size!), so he made my bro fetch a size-32. When my bro left to get the jeans, something out of this world happened. 'The BF' stood right there at the changing room, one hand on the door frame and leaning against it, looking at me. He even gave me that sinister but hot look, asking "What do you want?". I swore if my brother wasn't there, I would tell him "I want you and I want you now" and I would push him back into the changing room and do him right there. And when I say "do him" I meant kissing him. I'm not even brave to make out in a toilet, what more a changing room.

'The BF' seems to favor me in many ways. He always asks for my opinion when he tries on some clothes, always knows if I'm jealous that he's letting my brother hug him and feed him(he would offer me things in return to make me feel better), always keep me near him whenever we go for 'threesom datings'(he would pull my shirt from behind if I wander too far away from him when my bro's around him), would brush his hands against mine when we walk together when my brother isn't around. Heck he even knows how to turn me on by posing like a horny guy, with that horny look and asking THE QUESTION!

"What do you want?"

"I want you and I want you now, dirty little boy."

But then at times he would be so cool and don't really give any shit about us. Hell he would also go eww-ing when we talk about homosexuality. Is it because he's trying to hide the fact that he enjoys the topic? Or simply because he's not gay/bi? I don't see a reason why he should be hiding from us the fact that he's gay/bi since he clearly knows that my brother is gay and that after all the encounter with me, even if I'm not gay(which is half true), he should know that I'm cool with it.

The only reason I can think of why he 'eww's now is that he's straight as a stick. Which I fear it'll be true. But I don't dare putting our 13 year friendship on the line to ask him to be my boyfriend(because I'm very sure if I don't pressure him, he would just lie and say he's straight even if it's not true and that if he really is straight, I would see the end of our friendship).

Hate to be always in the dark not knowing anything. And I hate it even more to fall for the same guy as my brother. Double WTFs.

End of "The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX". "The Irresistible AX"? It was just something random that came to my mind when I was thinking of a title of this series of posts. I just happen to get a knitted top from AX recently(my first AX product, sadly. But I'm a proud owner of Emporio Armani stuffs!), so just thought of letting the world know.

I know, I'm an attention-seeking bitch.

End of "The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX" series.

The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX - Part II

Sorry for the delay, was very busy for the past couple of days.

So, part 2's gonna be about "The BF".

BF means boyfriend, but no, I don't have a "boyfriend" boyfriend. It's a long story, so leave this page now if you're not interested.

Well, remember how I talked about my brother and I not having the same taste for men? Well, it hasn't been always correct. For many years now, I've been liking this childhood classmate/friend/neighbour. But the thing is, he is my brother's boyfriend. Well, not really a boyfriend as my brother did not propose to him and that he's not really gay. I mean, I heard from my other friends that he has(had?) a girlfriend back in school(he went for Form 6, I did A-Level). Though he never told me about it, I took it for real as I don't really know if he's bi or gay. If he's straight, it's not wrong having a GF at his age right?

But the thing is we've known each other since we were 8, and we lived in the same neighbourhood for 10 years, and that we travel to school together every day, and that we go for tuition under the same tutors! So, being normal children, we grow up experimenting stuffs. We've grabbed each other's balls when we were young(all boys do that!), we've slept over at each other's house, we've whispered to each other at school and during tuition, we've lied on each other's shoulders or laps when we watched TV programmes and movies. Heck we've even held each other's hands.

But we were kids. We didn't really know what we were doing.

Though such incidents occured even until when we were 17, I've always thought that it's just us showing our 'brotherly' affection to one another. But at that age, we've already know what "gay" means, and I've already know that I'm bisexual. But him? He never claim that he's not straight, but he never say that he's straight either. I know that one doesn't need to announce to the world that he/she is straight because the world expects him/her to be straight. "Homosexuality is abnormal", no?

Ever since I left school for college and later to Moscow, we didn't really keep in touch with one another but when I return for my summer break, we would always hang out together. He's a passive person, so most of the time I have to make the first move. When we were on a 'date' last year, we watched a movie together. I paid for the tickets, popcorns and drinks, but he didn't thank me or whatsoever. During the movie, I wanted to hold his hands but didn't because it's been a year since we got that 'intimate' and I didn't want to scare him away and that I have no idea if he's straight or bi or gay. After the movie ended, I felt very cold as the temperature in the cinema was very low. After building up all my courage, I held his hands to make my hands warm. He stunned for a moment, asked what was I doing. I told him that my hands feel cold and I need to make myself warm. Thinking that he minded what I was doing, I removed my hands from his and continued to watch the credits roll. Then the most unexpected thing happened. He stretched his hands over and held my hands with them.

The lights in the theatre were already back on then.

After the movies, he treated me Baskin Robbins' ice-cream. We wanted to cam-whore, but there were people around, so we dropped the idea. It's the first time he volunteered to treat me something, and it's Baskin Robbins' ice-cream! We got ourselves 2 cones of ice-cream, and we shared them. In the very Baskin Robbins located at The Curve.

It was damn romantic OK. Couple watched movie, held hands, then ate ice-cream before heading home. It was perfect.

But then it could be just me. I mean, I paid for the tickects and popcorns. He wanted to be fair, so after the movie he treated me ice-cream. Simple as that.

Darn, damn sleepy now. Part III still on "The BF". Good night everyone.

The Same Word: Fuck

Apple knows how to do business. The whole "Twice as fast. Half the price" tagline plastered at their main page has flaws!

$199 for an 8GB iPhone 3G? It's only applicable to current iPhone 2.5G & AT&T users! If you're an AT&T subscriber but doesn't own an iPhone, check whether you're qualified for the offer. If you don't previously own an iPhone and also not an AT&T subscriber, you'll have to pay $399 for an 8GB iPhone 3G or $499 for the 16GB model.

It's written here.

Now you're making sense, Apple.

I was dumb enough to be fooled by the whole "$199 for an iPhone, so cheap your pants will drop!" scam. After all, Apple products don't come cheap, there's NO WAY an iPhone could be sold for only $199 when an iPod Touch with equal memory costs $299!

I should've known.

$399 for an iPhone? I'd rather spend $100 less to get an iPod Touch instead. After all, iPod Touch has all the functions I need: music, WiFi, maps, notes. I have a phone(which isn't all that OLD, it's less than a year old) so it doesn't really affect me much without the phone and SMS function. It's the 21st Century, who would pay additional $100 to get an iPod which can make phone calls and also SMS?

It's like, "OMG my iPhone can make phone calls and send text messages OK! Your iPod Touch cannot!"

Yeah, big deal. My Sony Ericsson phone can send MMS, can your iPhone do the same thing? No? Shut the hell up then.

"But my iPhone got Bluetooth lor! Your iPod Touch don't have!"

Bluetooth what? You Bluetooth is as good as non-existent. It can ONLY connect your phone to a Bluetooth headset. THAT'S ALL. Mine can send and receive files. Period.

"Um, um, my iPhone is cool OK!"

Er, I think my iPod Touch is cooler without the earpiece lor.

"My iPhone got 2MP camera! Your iPod don't have! HAHAHA!"

A camera in a phone? My Sony Ericsson has a 2MP camera too. And I have a digital camera and a dSLR. So... No, your iPhone doesn't seem appealing to me.

"But I have everything in the form of an iPhone whereas you need to send text messages from your phone, take photos from your camera and go online from your computer!"

True. My phone may not be as slim as an iPhone, but it definitely isn't as LONG and as WIDE as an iPhone. My digital camera is small and can take better pics than an iPhone, my iPod can stay in my pocket and does its job and not bother me a single bit. And when I return to Moscow, I'll have internet speed of 6Mbps, so I won't fall for that 3G speed. Besides, I mostly use the internet to DL AND SURF PORN, so an iPhone is not that convenient as the screen is small(I can't have enough visual feel of the action) and that I am decent enough to not surf and watch porn "on-the-go".

So, no, iPhone is not for me.

P/S: The sole reason I wanted an iPhone is because of the price. Now that the price is not what I thought is was, there's no reason for me to get an iPhone. So yeah, I'm now officially getting an iPod Touch.

P/P/S: Damn, I thought I would be getting an iPhone so I thought I could use the money I've saved to get an iPod Touch to get other stuffs. Now that other stuffs have been bought, I don't have money for my iPod. I could manage either an 8GB or 16GB model only. Good bye to my 32GB iPod. Sob. It's all fuckin' iPhone's fault.

No Fucking Way!!!

I've always wanted an iPod Touch. A 32GB iPod Touch. RM1800.

Then, this "Twice as fast. Half the price" thingy came along, which got me thinking. An iPod Touch which cannot make phone calls or an iPhone which has ALL the functions an iPod Touch has plus HALF the price?

I finally let my iPod Touch go and aim for an iPhone. It's a pity to be an Asian at times like this when you'll only get the "latest" gadgets available from Apple after everyone else in the world has got their hands on them and actually become bored of the gadgets.

iPhone 3G, twice as fast, half the price. Well, it's kinda right to some point. I mean, the price really is half of that of iPhone 2G, but it's only applicable in the U.S.. $199 for a 8GB iPhone! It's equivalent to RM660+ in Malaysia! It's too cheap for a 3G phone from Apple! But still this is real! It's all over Apple's official website!

But then again, I fail to realise that things are often unfair. The new iPhone will be released today, in the U.S., but Asian countries like China, Japan, Singapore and Malaysia? No news of when they'll be available in these countries, especially Malaysia as there's currently no official service provider for the iPhone.

When I was browsing the web just a moment ago, I thought of this.

"Why not I try to google 'iPhone Singapore launch date' to see if by any luck there are articles about when the new iPhone will be released in Singapore(since it's the nearest place I could go to get my own iPhone)."

So google I did, and I found this.

WTF! September 2008?!?!? But I'm leaving on August! There's no way I could change my flight date as I've already paid the fare in full amount and if I were to change the date I'll be charged RM100! Plus it only says 'September'. It could be 1st September, but it also could be 30th September.

My semester begins on the 1st. Boo.

Besides, Singapore's selling the iPhone for Singapore $690(USD $490+). 490 US Dollars! It's nowhere near "HALF THE PRICE". Even the 16GB model is only $299 in the US ok, and here Singapore's selling the 8GB model for $490!

I bet Singapore's tagline for the new iPhone is "The new iPhone 3G. Twice as fast. Equal the price. Or slightly more."

Fuck iPhone.

Update: Malaysia finally has its own Apple site. Visit our local Apple website here! Don't expect too much for now as it's very new, but hey, at least we finally have a site of our own!

I HAVE A FRIGGIN' CANON EOS 400D

Period.

I need to rant! I love my dSLR, I love the lens(though it's a kit lens), I love the CF card, I love the flash, I love the CURVES.

I am obsessed over my new darling. Screw hot men, screw Marc Jacobs, screw Nick Beyeler. All I need now is my BABY.

But when I'm over with my SLR I'll be lusting for Nick and Marc again. Heh.

I love macro lenses, but they're so expensive they'll burn my wallet into ashes, or tiny grains of dust!

I hate photography.

But still, my kit lens is better than lame digital cameras. "Zzz..Zzz...Ka Chak!" Stupid digital cameras with their so-called "13 Megapixels" and "6X Optical Zoom" and whatsoever, BEGONE! I now officially dismiss you of your service!

I am a proud dSLR user. A proud, noob, user.

Ooops!

Any sugar daddy around here who's kind enough to get me a macro lens? I'll be indebted for life!

I'm a TIGHT virgin.

More on The BF later. Muah!

The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX - Part I

I know the title sounded weird, but it's always like this when you first see it. Things will become better as the story unfolds.

So yeah, The Bro. No one in the virtual world knows about this but I don't exactly share a very good relationship with my elder brother. Everyone thought that we are 'the bestest brothers' but the truth is, we don't share much in common. My bro may be gay and I may be bisexual, but the types of men we like are different. My brother goes for Asians whereas I go for Caucasian. My brother likes 'the boys next door' whereas I prefer the hunky ones. I prefer those with facial and some body hair but my bro thinks that the smooth ones are better. Our type may be different(which is good in a way such that we probably won't fall for the same guy) but that's not the main reason why we aren't close to one another.

Hey Bro, what is it you like that I don't have?

The main reason why we aren't that close as we seem to be is the difference in our degree of maturity. No offence but though being the elder one, my brother seem to lack the maturity he should have at his age. When I was younger, I may enjoy his company, his jokes and the other things that he say, but being an adult now(I'm turning 21 this October), I no longer find his jokes funny, no longer have interest in the things he say and the way he acts. Well, he didn't change, but I did.

The gap between us is becoming wider and wider, and really, I don't think it's my fault. As people age, they (supposedly) become more mature. Well, I think I am maturing, but my bro just seems to enjoy being where he is. All he thinks about is buying this and that when he gets his salary, playing online games when he gets home, and many other things only a 15-year-old would do.

And I'm not the only one thinking that he has a problem. Even my family and close relatives think so. Whenever anyone tries to advise him to 'grow-up', he would just shut them away, saying that no one understood him. At times, he would even quarrel with my parents in public and then put up a face as though the whole world had mistreated him. And he daresay that he's a freakin' 24-year-old?!?!

Then he would also compare how our parents love me more than love him. Well, all I could say is it's obvious. First, I'm now studying in Moscow, it's natural for my parents to 'love me more' as they don't see me very often. Even my bro himself treats me better now than the times when I'm still studying in Malaysia! But he just didn't realize. Second, with my bro having such an attitude, I really cannot blame my parents to sometimes love him less. Mom and Dad may be our parents but they're human too. There's no such thing as 'loving a person unconditionally'. Tell me would you still love your wife unconditionally if she badmouthed your mother in public. That is if your mother is not someone you hate.

Everyone loves the angel!

So really, unless my brother grows up, loving him as a brother and as a son will not be an easy task. I'm sure no parent or sibling can put up with such attitude of another family member who's an adult without mental issues but acts like a kid. It sounds like a normal family drama, but it wouldn't be such a drama if my bro actually listens to people's advises and actually takes their advises into consideration.

This entry is random, I know, but I just need to rant. I'm tired of my bro having the attitude and knowledge of an elimentary school kid. He throws a tantrum whenever he doesn't get what he wants, he doesn't read newspapers(hence the lack of general knowledge), and most of all, behaves like a Cheena man('Cheena' is a word I use to describe a 21st Century Malaysian Chinese who still speaks and acts like a typical Chinaman, i.e.: speaks improper English, watches Chinese dramas only and is overly obsessed over Taiwanese pop singers). But what caused the lil' aneurysm in my brain today is that my brother doesn't even know the currency of United Kingdom!

"UK uses Pound Sterling de meh?"

That's it for now. Enough ranting over my brother. Poor him doesn't even know that his lil' brother is badmouthing him on his blog now.

End of "The Bro, The BF and The Irresistible AX - Part I". Stay tuned for Part II.