It may just be me, but I think that you're showing me signs that you're interested.
But if you're interested, why are you giving me different signals every day?
On Monday, you looked at me, smiled, and continued doing whatever you were doing. You acted like I was just an acquaintance and you smiled because you're 'obliged' to do so.
On Tuesday, you acted as if you didn't see me. I was non-existent.
On Wednesday, when I've decided to not care about you anymore, you bump into my face and give me a huge smile. And you'll be looking my way every 5 minutes. It was then that I know I have failed myself because I thought "you were giving me signals that you're interested" and I gave you a chance again.
These events keep repeating themselves. For more than 1.5 years now.
Just when I thought I've given "us" too many chances and that I should really stop hoping, the unexpected events occur. For the first time in 1.5 years, our eyes met each other and did not look away immediately. If I hadn't look away after 5 seconds, I bet it would've lasted longer.
Then, during the party our uni did, you were one of the committee members and your job wasn't to serve food but when it was my turn to get my food, you came forward and served me(and a few others, but you served me first!). And that was the only time you had served food throughout the whole party.
But just when you get my hopes high, you showed me the cold face again.
I was there in the lift this afternoon but you acted like you didn't see me. Maybe you really didn't see me. Maybe you're avoiding me. Maybe you think it's fun to toy around with my feelings. Too many possibilities, and I don't know which is true.
I'm exhausted. I can't keep up with you anymore. I don't know what you want, but as much as I want to ask you, I can't because we're surrounded by "rules" which we're not supposed to break.
If only either of us wouldn't care what people think and say about us. But since it's not going to happen, I suppose the best choice for me is to just give up on "us" and concentrate more on other stuffs.
It will not be easy to kick you out of my system, but I'm sure I'll make it through. Even the addicts can do it, why not me? Besides, you're not as addictive as drugs.
But if you're interested, why are you giving me different signals every day?
On Monday, you looked at me, smiled, and continued doing whatever you were doing. You acted like I was just an acquaintance and you smiled because you're 'obliged' to do so.
On Tuesday, you acted as if you didn't see me. I was non-existent.
On Wednesday, when I've decided to not care about you anymore, you bump into my face and give me a huge smile. And you'll be looking my way every 5 minutes. It was then that I know I have failed myself because I thought "you were giving me signals that you're interested" and I gave you a chance again.
These events keep repeating themselves. For more than 1.5 years now.
Just when I thought I've given "us" too many chances and that I should really stop hoping, the unexpected events occur. For the first time in 1.5 years, our eyes met each other and did not look away immediately. If I hadn't look away after 5 seconds, I bet it would've lasted longer.
Then, during the party our uni did, you were one of the committee members and your job wasn't to serve food but when it was my turn to get my food, you came forward and served me(and a few others, but you served me first!). And that was the only time you had served food throughout the whole party.
But just when you get my hopes high, you showed me the cold face again.
I was there in the lift this afternoon but you acted like you didn't see me. Maybe you really didn't see me. Maybe you're avoiding me. Maybe you think it's fun to toy around with my feelings. Too many possibilities, and I don't know which is true.
I'm exhausted. I can't keep up with you anymore. I don't know what you want, but as much as I want to ask you, I can't because we're surrounded by "rules" which we're not supposed to break.
If only either of us wouldn't care what people think and say about us. But since it's not going to happen, I suppose the best choice for me is to just give up on "us" and concentrate more on other stuffs.
It will not be easy to kick you out of my system, but I'm sure I'll make it through. Even the addicts can do it, why not me? Besides, you're not as addictive as drugs.
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