Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Drown In Fantasy

When I was young, I would tell my mother very often that someday, I'll buy a bungalow for her to live, hire a few maids, buy her a Mercedes Benz, a personal driver and unlimited credit card limit. And to do that, I'll work as a doctor, become a specialist and earn money, money and more money.

That went on for several years until sometine during High School, I made researches on this profession and to my horror, becoming a doctor is not as easy as I had thought, and to make things worse, not all doctors become rich. In fact, in Malaysia, most doctors, especially those working in the government hospitals, are struggling to make a living.

I thought of other opportunities, other courses, other careers, but sad to say, I have no interest in most of them. So, I reviewed my "ambition". After reviewing it, I made lots of changes. It doesn't matter if I'm rich or not, it doesn't matter if I drive a BMW or a Mercedes Benz, or living in a bungalow, as long as I could provide to my parents' needs, as long as I'm happy with what I'm doing, being poor is not a matter. Money is important, but it can't buy a family, it can't buy satisfaction, it can't buy joy. What's the point showering your family with money when you cannot afford to spend time with them? What's the point being rich if you do something you dislike?

Unfortunately, nobody approves of my plan. Even my parents think I'm being childish and ridiculous. And since then, arguments often occur between me and my family members. I do understand that my parents didn't want me to suffer in life, but little do they know that no one will be happy if we do things that we dislike.

Finally, they gave in, but not for long. Now that I'm offered to study Medicine overseas, my parents are trying to make me stay locally and pursue other courses.

I don't know what to do already. Should I insist on studying overseas, even without my family's support, or should I take up other courses which will end arguments about my studies and make everyone happy?

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